This is the worst night I have had in a while. I just can't sleep and my mind is reeling over a million things at once. I've been eyeing my razors for the last hour but I don't want to do it. But my mind keeps telling me that I have to tear my arm apart.. I just don't know what to do anymore. It's getting harder and harder to distract myself.. its 12:13am and there is absolutely no one up to keep me occupied at all.. I hate this feeling so so much.
I just.. I don't know how to deal with it anymore.. I have been listening to Bring Me The Horizon all day.. and all night. Because I just don't feel the need to listen to anything else but that.. It's really sad.. don't you think so? I certainly do... Oh man.. I don't know what to do anymore... Its just getting to me.. this anxiety doesn't help the matters any at all either.
well I guess that's it.. or I will end up just repeating myself like a broken record...
Abigail...
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